Susan's NDE Experiences And Other Things

 January 14, 2004

I never would have dreamed on that August morning that the life I had lived for forty years could so dramatically be changed.

It was August 10^th, 1994. I awoke quite as usual, enjoying my coffee and cigarette. The house was quiet with my then husband, Joel, and son out of town on a roofing project. My daughters were sleeping. Our housekeeper arrived shortly, and after greeting me, immediately began her daily tasks. The girls tumbled out of bed, one by one, and wandered into the office where I was working on some contracts for the roofing business Joel owned. I kissed the girls good morning, and after they were a bit more awake, had them sit with me in the dining room while I read a daily devotional from the bible to them.

That finished, they helped themselves to some cereal, and went into the den to watch cartoons. I returned to my desk, and completed the work on the contracts. It was just a bit past 10am. I decided to take a break. I poured a cup of coffee and grabbed an ashtray. I sat at the dining room table, facing the kitchen, where I could see Annie, our housekeeper, moving about. I lit my cigarette, taking a deep, satisfying drag. I smoked my cigarette and sipped on my coffee.

I am not certain how it began, nor how long it lasted, but I suddenly was aware that something powerful, like extremely intense hot energy, was flowing through my body. It entered through the top of my head, and was coursing throughout my entire being. Through the head, into my arms, down to my finger tips, back up my arms, through my torso and down my legs. When this energy left my body, I felt as if I had been re-born. Everything was changed in me. All of my philosophies about life and religion had been dramatically altered. I was no longer the christian that I had been for so many years, for it became quite apparent to me immediately that the scope of true Spirituality went far beyond the limitations of any religion I had ever known, or even heard of, for that matter.

I was so excited about this experience, that I immediately ran to the kitchen where Annie was working. I tried to explain to her what had happened. I placed my hands on her head, and showed her how the energy had coursed through me. She smiled, and said, that's nice. I went into the den and tried to explain to the girls what had happened. They were so young, only nine and twelve years old. They were delighted, in their own youthful way, although I know that they could not have truly appreciate what I was telling them.

I could hardly wait for my son and Joel to return home. This was knowledge that I must share with them, knowledge that I most surely must share with everyone. It was late afternoon when they finally arrived. I greeted both of them, then took Joel into the bedroom, so that I could speak with him privately. His response to my experience was, “Oh, I must phone the pastor and have the church start praying for you, for you most surely are demon possessed!” He shrugged away from me, not wanting me to touch him, or even be very near to him. This reaction was pretty much the same reaction I received from the rest of my family and friends. The children were different, though. They were supportive and loving. And shocked by how badly their father was treating me. It was, in fact, the children who made me aware of the fact that Joel was attempting to compile evidence against me in order to have me committed to a mental institution. I experienced the horrors of alcoholism, which I tried to use to fog my reality and hasten my demise. I didn't want to be a burden to anyone. But you know, even during this time of extreme metamorphosis, I read and studied and learned and grew.

The years passed, my relationship with Joel waned, and he left the family in November 2001, moving by himself to Reno, Nevada. During those same years, I continued to grow in “Spirit”. I met Tom in June of 2002. I was divorced from Joel in January 2003, and married Tom a month later.

I don't know if what I experienced could be defined as an NDE. I have heard many terms that could describe it. Spontaneous Kundalini, sudden enlightenment, divine inspiration, etc. Whatever it was that I experienced, it was the most profound experience, outside of knowing Tom, that I have ever had. And it has changed me forever.

I am what I am, by virtue of the Universe.

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